Thursday, July 16, 2015

Still fighting!!

Well, here we are again! Damon has another bout of pneumonia  and had an x-Ray, CT Scan, an MRI OF THE HEAD & blood work Tuesday. The MRI came back negative, thank goodness! I know I was very scared that he had a tumor on his head but he doesn't!!  The x- ray showed pneumonia and his CT showed that all of his tumors have definitely grown in size. The new study in St. Louis is underway.  The doctor from there is Dr. Bryan Van Tine, who said to expect an increase in size. Apparently this study worked well for melanoma and his sarcoma is in the same cancer family as melanoma. 

We are going to be leaving Sunday June 19th to go to Chicago for his work from Monday, June 22, leaving there Wednesday 24th to drive back to St. Louis so he will have his treatment Thursday, June 25th, and home Friday June 26th.  Then he has to go back to St. Louis on Sunday June 28th to have another CT Scan on Monday and a biopsy on Tuesday June 29th. Should be home that Tuesday or Wednesday.  

Hopefully we will be told that it has finally started to work. Apparently, as I said earlier, in the melanoma study the tumors would grow and then it would finally begin to work and begin making the tumors shrink. 
 I have never been so scared in my life, and I have been through a lot of things, both with Damon and without. I feel as we are being tested and the test is how hard we are willing to fight for Damon's life. I can honestly say that there has only been one other time I was willing and able to to fight so hard for something and that was when I was pregnant with my daughter. I was in bed the entire 9 months due to pre-eclampsia and being displayed to 5cm at  month 3. We had to stop labor 4 different times. So fighting for the life of someone I love in not new to me. But this is different kind of hard that I cannot explain.
I have never been more proud to be able to call myself Damon Brewer's wife. His strength and determination is an amazing thing to see and he continues to amaze me every day. I am learning to be stronger by using his example. He taken such good care of me the entire time we have been together. Now it is my turn to take care of him. I know I am still learning how to do that. I am and will make mistakes. But I will never stop being there for him and taking care him as long as God allows me to do so.  
I want to thank our friends for everything you all continue to do. From support, shoulders to cry on to fundraising. You have a done so much we love you dearly for it.  It is truly in times like this that we find out who our real friends are. We love you all. 
More to come later! Sorry for any typo's!!